In the beginning....

I was never happy with my body, but looking back, I suppose I may have been better looking than I once thought, but like Heidi, three children, a husband who worked constant hours and little help over the past 4 years, I have grown and changed not only emotionally but physically as well.

In the past few months, my husband and I have relocated half way across the country. With his finishing his Ph.D., our selling our home, moving in temporarily with my parents in their summer cottage, traveling east and living in a completely new world, I continued to make excuses as to when I would lose weight.

I had had a baby. I had a lot going on. I couldn't find time to work out. Eating made me calm. However, all these excuses have allowed me to grow a fond hatred for my body and raising children, girls especially, I need to show them how to treat and respect the one body God chose to give them.

Recently I got to a point where I was so sad, that I began to be depressed. Well, I think it was depressed, when I watched that Cymbalta commercial it sure seemed like me but in reality I think I am just "situation depressed". Is that a clinical diagnosis? I am not sure, but I am also no physician...however as a lay person with no medical experience I have diagnosed myself as "Situationally Depressed". That situation HAS to change.

Shortly before my family and I left for the holiday's I began working out. Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred was great however waiting for my husband to return home was not. After taking care of the girls, homeschooling, running errands, cooking, cleaning and whatever else the day encompassed, I was simply too exhausted by the time the girls were in bed. So I tried working out with them. Yeah, right. With my oldest laying next to me trying to do push ups exclaiming "This is too Hard" to my middle sitting on my back while I tried to do said push ups, it just wasn't working. So I checked out some other options.

I checked out some gyms, just not feasible. The $49.00 a month fee is no issue, its the extra $45.00 child care fee that seems to make it near impossible. See, even with my husband's good job we try to be frugal.

Shortly after checking out the gyms we began our holiday travels. Holiday travels=holiday eating and HOLIDAY WEIGHT GAIN! So I decided I would try to change my eating habits NOW because if I could do it NOW then I could do it anytime. Its not been fool proof but I have gotten in some good long walks, over an hour. Even with that it seems my pants are tighter, so its time to buckle down.

So I talked to Heidi about my challegnes and my feelings, and she has similar ones. So we decided to go on this journey together. Even though we're miles apart, we plan to support each other and challenge each other. This morning Heidi got up and realized she's already lost 5 pounds. WAY TO GO! I am slightly jealous but still really proud of her!!!!! I however have lost nothing. I need to get some batteries for my scale upon my return home and I hope to have 20 pounds gone by my Birthday, June 30! Hot and Awesome for 31.