I feel like every one of my posts recently has started with an apology. I've (obviously) been having a hard time keeping up with things recently - well, pretty much the past three months. I honestly can't really even remember the past three or four months - it's all been a blur. I can't believe it's already July, and almost a week into July, at that!
Summer has officially started here in Maine. It's hot (90s!!! No central A/C!! ACCCKKKK), it's sunny, and school is out. Well, school's been out for a couple of weeks now, and it's been beautiful weather for a couple of weeks, but I'm just now sitting down to truly enjoy summer. We had a wedding (my sister's), a couple of business trips for Mike that I tagged along on, an interview trip to Arizona, and then a mad dash to finish projects around our house so we could list it on the market. It's been a bit overwhelming.
I've fallen back into my previous pitfalls: snacking out of boredom and not really paying attention to what I'm doing. I'm snacking for comfort - the more stressed I get about my "to-do" list, the more I eat. I've been watching myself do it, in that kind of mind's eye viewpoint, and honestly, I'm having a hard time finding the motivation to even care about stopping. I'm tired, I'm stressed, and most of the time, I can force myself to not even care about what I'm doing to myself.
That has to change. I don't have a scale yet (never bought a replacement), and we can't find the DVD for our Wii fit - it disappeared while we were gone on one of the business trips, so I can't weigh in, but I can't tell from my clothes and how they fit, that I've gained a lot of the weight back that I had lost.
So, starting right now, I'm starting over. I'm going to do this in small steps - life is going to stay stressful right now, and I don't want to put too much pressure on myself. But I DEFINITELY do not want to move to Arizona feeling like I do right now. It's hard to explain, but I don't feel CLEAN the way I am right now. I'm so sweaty and grimy, and the extra weight is just contributing to that. I don't feel cute or attractive at all, and I don't like that.
Each week, I'm going to try and set three goals and work on meeting them. Some are going to be weight-loss related, and some are just general goals for my life/mindset that I need to, or want to, work on before we move. This summer needs to be a time to recharge and revamp before things change again. I need to find my base before we pack up and move across the country.
So, this week's goals are:
1) Blog, blog, blog. I was doing SO much better when I was blogging before. I miss that outlet. I'm constantly thinking of things to write about, but I never take the time to sit down and write it out. It's not like I'm not on the computer - I seem to find time to email or check out statuses on Facebook, but I've not been taking the time to sit down and put my thoughts out there. It's more for me than you guys, because it helps me to formalize my thoughts, to put them into some sort of understandable format, so that I can return to them later and know what I was trying to say. I need that for my own good!
2) Have FUN this summer. My life is SO crazy during the school year with all the different meetings/time spent in the car, etc. I realized that this is going to be our last summer in Maine - and I want to enjoy my surroundings as much as I did the first summer that we lived here. Now that Baby #3 is easier to tote around and isn't napping as much, one of my goals this summer is to be a fun mom again. We're going to hit up the parks, the beaches, the state parks, etc. We've already started, and I'm loving it!!
3) Take a little bit of time each day and add it into my prayer life. I've been kind of shortchanging God recently, and had moved my prayer time to be as I was getting in bed. I'd read a little Scripture and then try to pray it- and often fell asleep in the process. God deserves better from me. My goal this week is to find a better time of day for that prayer. I've been getting up at 4:45 am the past few weeks for at least a couple days a week to take Mike to work (his car needs work, and we're saving up the money to get it done, so we're down to one car right now), and I actually really like getting up that early. I'd get a lot done. Summer is the perfect time to change this part of my schedule - I don't get hooked on summer TV usually, so going to bed early isn't as much of a struggle, so getting up early isn't as hard the next day. My goal is to get up at 5 am, take that time for my prayer time, and then eventually add working out into that time period as well.
4) Drink water. I've gotten kind of lax on this recently, and started falling back on my soda/coffee habit. It's going to be super, super hot here this week, and I need to make sure that I get myself back into the drinking a lot of water habit.
So, there they are. My goals that I'm going to start working on this week. I'm feeling pretty positive - I've enjoyed the trips to the state parks recently with the kids (goal #2), and I'm enjoying writing this right now (goal #1). I think it's going to be easier to stick with this time.
How are you all doing out there? Are you working on the same goals that you were six months ago, or have you revised them at all? Share!
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