A little nervous...

...about stepping on the scale tomorrow, that is. I started the week doing really well, but the past couple of days have been really hard on me, and I'm worried about what that scale is going to say. Eek!!

I haven't been around much recently, and didn't even manage to get in a workout today. Tomorrow is another jam-packed day with a preschool open house in the morning and a birthday party in the evening. Whew! My house and my body are begging for some downtime!!

I find myself living on lists when I get this busy - my "to-do" list is my saving grace. Unfortunately, if it's not on that list, it usually doesn't get done. (and I ALWAYS accidentally leave something off of that list!!). I need to work harder at making sure that working out is on that list!!

I've hit a couple of emotional bumps this week, as well. I ended up not getting that job that I blogged about the other day. It was down to me and one other person (out of 9), and the other person won, based on "applicable experience." I'm frustrated, but I'm trying to keep a positive mindset about it. I was REALLY excited about this job - it seemed perfect for me and our home life, but I'm trying to let go and step back from all of those emotions surrounding the job. I need to remember that I am not the one in control, and maybe, just maybe, someone knows better than I do as to what I need and what my family needs. It's hard - and it's depressing. And it makes getting the energy to work out - or the finding motivation to avoid the cheaper, less healthy foods - extremely hard.

I've gotten a ton of responses about my last post, the "Plexiglass Effect," and I really appreciate them. Your responses are helping me step back and try to evaluate just what it is that I really want to be doing with my life, and what I want to be accomplishing with my days/time/energy. I appreciate that!

For now, I'm going to concentrate on giving myself credit (another step in the Beck Diet Solution )

So here it is - and I challenge you to make a list on your own, every night. (and a warning - I'm thinking of making this the challenge for the next week, just so you know to prepare!!). I live by lists, like I already mentioned, but this one is going to be different.

I challenge you to create - and share with someone (build that accountability!!) - a list of 5 things that you deserve credit for every day. It can be something small and seemingly insignificant (doing laundry, grocery shopping, returning a call or email), or something really big (volunteering your time, working out, finishing a project, etc). Whatever it is, I want you to sit down and come up with a list of 5 things that you deserve accolades for from that day. It's going to be hard, I'm sure - but I think the payoff will be huge!

My list for today:

1) I got my cleaning list checked off: (bathroom, kitchen, living room)

2) I sent out emails that I've been putting off for days, just because I was procrastinating.

3) I went to McDonald's for lunch with a friend and our kiddos and only had a side salad, diet coke, and a few of Baby #3's fries (HUGE for me!! I usually have a Big Mac meal and eat it ALL).

4) I managed to get everything ready for the preschool open house tomorrow, even thought I really didn't want to.

...and the biggest one for me today....

5) I went to the appreciation dinner tonight at church, only an hour or so after finding out that I didn't get the job (and after crying my eyes out about it), and actually ENJOYED myself. It took all of my strength to smile and forget about my disappointment, but I did, and it paid off in the end.




So how about you? What did you do today that you deserve credit for?